fighting the lazy

ah, you guys. there has been nothing else but pure guilt for me in this house lately. everywhere i turn, there is something to clean. dust bunnies. broken toys. legos. cat hair. seat cushion on the floor. shoes. everything is a bitter reminder of how much i don't wanna do. i feel like i have this blanket on me, and if you're mexican, those 5 blankets you use during the winter because you don't have central heating, and you can't even turn yourself in bed because it's so heavy. every day. every moment. i feel like i'm failing. like i can't get over this physical laziness. and i refuse to use the word tired because that's just cliche. in our world, you are either super busy or tired. but i am not busy nor tired. i am just....lazy? quick! someone come kick me in the pants.

is it because it's summer and you're supposed to be lazy in the summer? is it psychological like that? is it this beautiful humid heat that's wearing me down? maybe it's because we are lacking a serious schedule. but my body is not responding like i want it to and it's driving me nuts.

at service yesterday, they spoke about how summer is for breaks. how every week you are to take the Sabbath. to rest, be still. i feel like every day is my Sabbath. and it is making me sick. too much Sabbath! too much! my body is at rest, but my mind is not. honestly, i don't know how to mind-rest. 

and if you have ever met my mother, she is not a stop-for-a-break type of person. she is a go-go-go-GO! person. Mom! you're putting way too much pressure on me--quit it! ....i half-kid.

i implemented a no-tv rule in the New Witty household and it worked. for about 4 days. then the urge to take a nap was just way too much and the tv turned into my babysitter for 2 hours. award for best mom does not go to me for obvious reasons.

the husband helps though. he has been wonderful with chores since he is on summer break from teaching. but still, it's those baseboards that are covered in crusty old food, the stupid cats that track litter all over the place, and the dust that's collecting everywhere that drives me most bonkers. i recently convinced the boys to clean the baseboards in their room for icecream. again, no awards here.

am i turning into a lazy a-hole or am i just surviving this role in my pathetic life now? i know, i know...i'm not starting any pity parties. although i love those, they don't do anyone any good.

it's weird how one goes through different moods through the seasons...in summer? oh summer. i really have a love/hate relationship with you. i won't get into it here 'cause it gets ugly, but you know....oh you know. 

my garden won't produce. my plants are all dead and wimpy looking....toads have taken residence in them and that does not cheer my heart up one bit in the mornings. there's two toads in my 6" dyanthus in the photo below. before i grabbed my camera, there were three. i threw those suckers over my fence. can you guess how high can a toad can fly?

this pile of papers just keeps growing on my desk and i have no plans to sort it out any time soon. right now, as long as my babies are fed, my husband is satisfied, everybody is smiling, and we do things together as a family, then my heart will be content. because i have so much to be thankful for.

it's just a different story inside my mind. :) i hope your week has been going better than mine, have a great one! 

simple moments: sun, ow-ies & toads

Jonah had a rough time at one of our workouts this week...Kids will be kids and act like puppies. They chase each other around with weight bands around their necks and then trip and fall and hit their cheeks on hard metal in the weight room. What? Yours never did that? What can I say? 

Our Witty heads weigh a lot...Have you seen my lop-sided forehead?!?!

So he got babied {quite much} and was given Skittles and Hot Wheels to take the pain away. It was really awful how he managed to fall and hit his face, so I felt it necessary to try to make him smile.

I love snapping pictures of his cute little lips. His gorgeous eyes and pudgy cheeks. 

Oh, JoJo, you melt my heart...

And Andrew. Oh Andrew, how we love you. He finally allowed me to snap some photographs of him.

I love the shadows and the light from our 5 o'clock living room window. I loved how he pretended to be 'asleep' while I took his pictures. I loved that he smiled and stayed still for half a second.

And  guess what I found in our back patio?

I wish I would have caught Jonah shrieking because the toad was jumping out of his 'bathtub' after I stopped filming. Yeah, Jonah requested we gave the poor toad a bath because he peed inside the container. 

ahhhh! I already have my prince charming, so no I didn't kiss the frog. It was mostly scaredy-cat-nerves of what he would do to me {tongue me?} But this guy was amazing! He was so calm. He didn't pee on me. Just himself. He remained so cool while Jonah blew on him to dry him off after his bath, and then Andrew came over and poked his eyeball--twice. He was so squishy and warm. 

We let him go at the request of the husband. Wish I could have kept him. He seemed like a cool toad.

Linking up to Simple Moments with Brooke.

simple moments is about finding the small things that make up our everyday, things we want to remember and be thankful for. it's the little bits of our lives that might not be remembered when we are gray and old. so we document it, on paper, with a photo, in a journal, through a blog.